I am teaching relief society tomorrow. People always say that you learn so much more from teaching then you do sitting in that desk listening... this is true times 1000. Like teaching English to my Mexico babies... I learned so so much about being patient and loving those hooligans... and like teaching aerobics... You just gain a perspective that you can't if you didn't take the time and prepare.. I am studying these talks that I am using tomorrow and I just feel so strongly about them and I just hope that I can get a fraction of the passion and the love that I feel when I read these talks to the girls that I am teaching... I hope that something that I share will help them with something they are struggling with like it's helping me.
Let's be honest here it's the truth, I am still kind of impressionable. A lot impressionable. Instead of being in denial, I am just going to say that everything that we watch or hear or listen to effects us whether we like it or not, the people that we hang out with influence the attitudes we adopt... I will always be me.. but in order to be the best version I need to make a serious effort to surround myself with good people and good things...
Friends or anyone who respects you in the least will always be pushing you for the better... to keep the rules and be an honest decent person.. and anyone who doesn't do that.... doesn't really care about you very much.
I am nowhere near perfect by any means, but these are just things I've been thinking about.
And is it fun to say, " I just want to be friends" twice in one day? No. Hurting feelings never feels good. Ever.
messing with camera & natural lighting... sleeping in.. cocoa bean...comfy pants.. chamomile tea... movies.. laughing till we pee... girl time... boy talk. i needed this weekend.
* THE TACO BUS. Which is my new happy place. Throwin back a diet coke eatin some fajitas with my roomies. Yessss. If anyone ever wants to make me the happiest girl alive all they would have to do is take me to taco bus. And give me a back rub. For behold, those things are my favey fave.
* The gym. Which I am headed to right now. Self, the gym is a good thing. I just have to remind myself of my inner endorphin junkie.
I just finished The Help by Kathryn Stockett. I have this thing where I have to finish books as quickly as possible, otherwise I think about the unfinished plotline when I am doing other things and it's distracting. Even if it means that I possibly read.... pretty much all day. But can I just tell you that book was 100% worth it!
It was about maids during the civil rights movement, and this girl who wants to be a journalist who puts everything on the line to get their stories for a book- burning every bridge she has for something she feels passionate about. It's filled with irony and humor but it also has the most tender moments ever.....My favorite part being the maid telling the toddler that is neglected by her mother.., " you are kind, you are smart, you are important. ".. It's about breaking through those barriers that we set up for ourselves, and reaching for something better even if it means risking everything.
It's just insane to me how recent these times really were, and how a lot of sentiment and tragedies that happened then are still going on today. It's excellent, I highly recommend it.
On Fridays my only class is photography lab... but on account of I am still mulling over exactly what I want to do for my next assignment which is motion.. I didn't have anything to do.. and went home at 8:30... I wouldn't have gone but I swore I wouldn't skip class this semester to myself.
Then in the temple I was soo soo tired I was practically asleep when I was waiting my turn.. but it was amazing and peaceful as always..
So I get home and do pilates and clean my apartment and crash for a 2 hour nap... And had the worst dream everrrr. It was that I was back in Mexico, and it was my last day, and I had to say goodbye all over again. Once tore me apart enough... In the dream I was doing everything in my power to escape a teary goodbye and was just trying to basically peace, which possibley was an idea I had while I was there.. that didn't work. It threw me off for a bit, but then Brittany came over and we partied the rest of the night with her roomies. We went to a basketball game, and I got super into it... which is as random and out of character as... me eating a hamburger...or shutting the door when I pee. I never do. Except when boys are over. And hamburgers are sicknast.
Oh and then me and B were sitting on the floor watching a movie with her roomies and this rabid centipede comes crawling out of the darkness right past us, probably with the intent of eating our faces off........ we freak out and made Joe Bob kill it even though Hannah was entirely opposed to ending the life of this " innocent" bug. False. That bug has like 200 legs. Sorry Hannah that thing was asking for it.Gross. And Brittany thinks it bit her. If they do that.
Today was filled with moments that just made me say.. "REALLY?!" Sometimes in a good way, sometimes not so much. Exhibit A: I walk out of my apartment only to discover that it is raining like no other. I run back in and grab my umbrella. I didn't even make it out of the parking lot before the heinous wind blew it inside out and broke all the little wimpy metal poles. Possibley I tossed it in a dumpster and said, "REALLY UMBRELLA!"
Then, I asked my world civilizations teacher what I could do to make up for the fact that I had a calender mix up and didn't do this little presentation thing. And he said I could come to his office anytime and do the presentation there. REALLY OLD MAN!? I'm not going to get zero points! Excellent.
Then I walked into children's lit and there were homemade oreos on the table. "FERREALS!?" Yeah I ate 4. Really. And the class was super fun, luvvv it.
Then. I went to the second floor. To Study. And proceeded to fall asleep and possibley drool on my book bag a little bit. And woke up with a note on my desk that said, " I like your shoes." I should have stood up and yelled THANKS! to the general audience that is the library. I know that they would appreciate in on account of it's not like I get glared at when I turn a book page to loudly or anything. Anyways I can't decide if that is bizarre or super neat, that a person was that insistent on sharing their love for my teal pointy toed ballet flats with the flowers on them. Let's go with... SUUUPA NEAT.
Then I went to the Lazaris with the girlies from my lit class and we got to read Horton hears a Who and have bubbles blown at me by adorable children.
Fact: In Mexico I struggled to communicate. Every sentence was a struggle when you are learning Spanish. Now that I am back, words seem so easy to say, and it's so easy to talk. In consequence, I talk to people more now that is easy. And I am making friends in my classes. And I like that.
Also. I made a grilled cheese without burning it. And it was delicious.
Also, the dude who is the teachers aid in the photography lab invited me to " documentary night" and I am going. With my roomie Mer, as back up, in case it's something serious and I laugh and an awkward time.. anyway... yeah. I don't know if I'm a documentary kind of girl on account of if I watched it I might get extreme like the Day Without Shoes and buying Toms I don't know.. Like what if I got all freaky about saving dolphins or something? I can completely see that happening.
luvs luvs luvs KAYLA
REALLY.
P.S
In 90210 which I viewed today, Teddy says to his dad after his tennis match, "Everyone is an expert from the sidelines."
Think about that. Because that is the only deep thing Teddy on 90210 will probably say.
